Dreams: The Sibling I Never Met


So this morning I woke up from a weird dream. And if you know me you know I gotta share it. So my mom had 6 kids, but only 5 are living. My brother named Anthony died while he was an infant. He was only 3 months old. But in this dream he lived to be about 6 or 7.. we all my mom and dad and my brothers and sister were all at a pool. I believe I was in my moms arms because I was just looking at everyone. My brother (Anthony) the older one since both have the same name, was swimming and he went to show off in the deep in and drowned. My dad jumped in to save him but it was too late.

My dad had him in his arms crying and saying he was so sorry. IDk how my mom reacted… but when I woke up I was like wow.

So you know I did a research, my brother Anthony (infant) died January 27, 1981. Long before I was even born.. so I never saw him… what made me have this dream about him now?

Check my favorite site and here’s what I found… although I still am confused:

Dreaming of someone who is already dead:

To see or talk to the dead in your dream forewarns that you are being influenced by negative people and are hanging around the wrong crowd. This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes material loss.

If you dream of a person who has died a long time ago, then it suggests that a current situation or relationship in your life resembles the quality of that deceased person. The dream may depict how you need to let this situation or relationship die and end it.

If you dream of someone who has recently passed away, then it means that their death is still freshly in your mind. You are still trying to grasp the notion that he or she is really gone. If the dead is trying to get you to go somewhere with him or her, then it signifies that you are trying to understand their death. You also don’t want to be alone.

To see and talk with your dead parents in your dreams represent your fears of losing them or your way of coping with the loss. You are using your dream as a last opportunity to say your final good-byes to them.

To see your dead sibling, relative, or friend alive in your dream indicates that you miss them and are trying to relive your old experiences you had with them. In trying to keep up with the pace of your daily waking life, you dreams may serve as your only outlet in coping and coming to terms with the loss of a loved one.

To dream of your dead child is a way for you to keep your child alive through your dreams. For a parent to lose a child is extremely difficult. Such dreams occur because you still cannot accept or understand how or why your child was taken from you so soon.

It is important to keep in mind that even though a person has passed away, it does necessarily mean that your relationship with them is dead; the relationship is just different now. Dreams can serve as a way for you to keep a connection and maintain a relationship. via Dream Moods

But what I did realize, now I understand why my mom has depresseion and a hard time during the holidays. My brother was born in November and died 3 months later… that had to have been hard.

Maybe that dream was meant to happen and for me to gain this knowledge. My brother died of SIDS, which was not recongized as it was today..and they of course blamed my mom which caused a whole heap of problem. My mother still has his ashes.

Maya’s Two Worlds: Chap. 11

Maya's Two Worlds

Trina was furious she has sent Maya a text and she ignored her. Now she was over on the dance floor hugged up with some man. She knew Maya wasn’t a lesbian, but she didn’t understand why Maya would ignore her after what happened in the bathroom.

She stormed over and before Maya noticed her she snatched Akil out of Maya’s arms. Akil looked shocked and didn’t know what was going on. He told Maya he had no idea who this girl was, Maya was in shock and couldn’t even make her words come out. Jas ran over to make sure her bestie was okay.

Trina: (yelling) “Really, Maya?!”
Maya: (confused) “Why would you?”

Jas pulled Maya away clearly Trina was a jealous psycho and last time Jas check Maya was single. Jas grabbed Akil over to and apologized for Maya because she was still in shock. Akil looked at Maya and mumbled, “Just call me later.” He couldn’t make sense of what just happened. As Akil walked away, Trina came over still angry shouting, “I thought we had a connection, remember what we shared?!” Maya looked at Trina and couldn’t believe what just happened. “Please just leave me alone, I really can believe you would do that?! I never made any promises to you. I see clearly that I can’t deal with a person who would do something like this!”

Trina walked off and headed in the direction of the bar. She couldn’t believe she lost her temper but she was drunk and couldn’t take it. She went over it in her head and thought how she could’ve addressed it but the damage was done. Maya seems to want nothing to do with her and but she was determined to win her back.

Jas and Maya walked to the car. Akil was standing next to Maya’s car. He wanted an explanation. Maya was in no mood she was embarrassed and didn’t even know where to start. She walked over to him and kissed him to say sorry, but he dodged it. So Maya looked at him and said “fine I will explain, get in”. Jas looked at Maya asked “You sure you’re gonna be okay?” Maya nodded her head and entered her car. “So I met Trina at a club and we hit it off, she is a lebisan and has never dealt with a bi sexual female but was willing to see how things went. I also told her about you.” Akil, in shocked said “you did what?” “Yes, I told her about you and she was cool about it, and then she goes and does this.” Akil waited until Maya pulled up into her parking spot and turned the engine off and leaned over to kiss her. Maya was confused but she accepted his kiss. They eventually got out of the car and Akil walked Maya to her door. This time Maya didn’t want him to go like he did the last time so she asked him to stay. He grabbed her keys and opened the door. She said to him, “no pressure but I just want to lay with you.” He smiled and said “Ok”.

Music Mondays: Don’t Walk Away

Throwback for sure….this was my jam!! Rocking out at my desk right now!!! Singing a long…. these young folks don’t know nothing about good music!! LOL

Flashback Fridays: See n’ Say


My Tater and See n’ Say

So this toy right here is from my lovely childhood, and guess what it’s still around!! My son loves it, and as soon as it makes the sounds my son dances.

See toys from out childhood rock even to this day!! :)

10 Random Things About My Wkend


1. I took my kids to visit my mom… it’s been about 2 ½ months since she has seen them.
2. She seems okay…
3. I was supposed to go watch a friend of mines play bball, I didn’t make it so he’s mad.
4. Both of my riders (bestie and my Ace) are in relationships now.
5. This Korean guy at my asked me out on a date. Interesting
6. I decided to be more active on POF (a dating site).
7. Had an interesting talk with my daughter’s father… it was something I needed to hear.
8. If funny that through all this we can still have normal conversations.
9. I’m so broke.
10. I enjoyed my wkend.

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