So, I log on to FB and the first thing I see are these two hands joined together with wedding rings. I think “aww who do I know that was supposed to be getting married?” But the name I read is all to familiar.
The tears fall.
It’s my daughter’s father. He got married today. Yes, I’m in shock!! Reason one is because he got married and said nothing. No, I don’t want him. Reason two, he didn’t invite his daughter to join him one of the happiest days of his life.
I browse through the pics as the tear keep falling. I see one of his daughter’s all dressed to celebrate in the ceremonies. In one pic, is has his newborn…my daughter was no where. Why?…she wasn’t invited.
He already doesn’t spend time with her, and then he doesn’t even include her in his life. Where does that happen??
I’m so hurt I make a post..stating that I just found out something and I’m crying. A few people asked whats wrong and to some I explain. Only one person I told gets why I’m crying, some don’t but try and offer support.
I’m crying for her, he walks around as if she’s not here. He lives in the same town…but all I’m told is to give him time. He doesn’t include her…. its as if she isn’t even here to him?
As, Im typing this I’m crying…for her, for the hurt she will feel when she see things for what they are. She already asks me questions to which I can not give her answers too. She remember her brief times with him…but when will his realize his actions shows that he could care less about her and her feelings???
I cry and I’m hurting for her and her future. Hoping I can be all she needs me to be. Hope that despite his actions she won’t feel any less loved. I know from experience how it feels and I want to shield her from the hurt and those feeling of rejection.
What do I do??
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