Person 1: Are you okay? You’re real quite today.
Me: I’m going thru a few things, but I learning to let go and let God.
Person 1: Well let me give you a hug.(hug)
I go back to my desk and proceed to start back with my work.
Person 2: Are you ok?
Me: Internal stressing, but I will be okay. You’re the second person to ask me that.
Person 2: Well we’re just to you having energy and being happy. So we were that’s why we ask. Plus, its you look like something is bothering you or your in the zone.
Me: Really, wow I thought I was hiding it. But thanks for caring enough to ask.
Person 2: No problem.
I’m sure we all have been there before. But I hate when I try to hide how I’m feeling and it doesn’t work! At the same time, I’m grateful to have people around me that pay enough attention to know when some thing is bothering me.
I have been in funk because of financial issues. I swear I work hard to barely pay the bills. I know I need a 3rd job (third becuz working and being a mother is 2 separate jobs). But I really don’t have time for one, unless I want to be one of the absentee mothers. Not knowing who my child is because I’m working too much and I no longer have time for them.
The worst part is I was receiving child support, it was a little but the little helped. I went to court yesterday for my daughter’s father because he hasn’t paid since January. I commend him on coming thru once to pay her after school program when I couldn’t but, come on now! I know that having a child, a new house & bills are a given when you choose to become a mother. But a little help here! After leaving court, I made my way to the pawn shop to pawn my laptop. Yes, I was hurt but it needed to be done. I got $50 for it…and guess how much I have now… about $10…yeah every time I turn around something is needed. SMH :(
Yes, so I’m stressed. But at the same time I have this motto. Everything God allows me to go thru makes me stronger…but I can’t help but worry a little. I’m try my hardest not too. I know God has me and the mini. So I’m trying to wipe this worry off my face and bring back the joy!
Pray for me!! I’m a work in progress!